What is Vipassana? 

Vipassana is an ancient meditation practice that means “to see things as they really are.” It focuses on observing the mind and body with complete awareness and without judgment.

During a retreat, practitioners cultivate deep stillness and mindfulness, learning to observe thoughts, sensations, and emotions as they arise and pass away. The practice encourages self-understanding, inner peace, and clarity that remains long after the retreat ends.

Entering Silence 

I attended my first 10-day silent Vipassana retreat in Egbert, Ontario.

The Daily Routine 

From early morning until evening, we sat in meditation and observed complete silence. Each sleeping quarter had two people separated by a curtain, and we were not allowed to speak to anyone — not even our roommate. The meditation hall was large, accommodating many people, with women and men seated in separate sections.

Meals were taken in the dining hall in silence. No cellphones, no books, no journals, and no distractions — only the practice. We were encouraged to remain still during meditation sessions and to stay fully awake and attentive.

The Challenge 

The first two days were incredibly difficult.

Physical and Mental Struggles 

My body itched, my mind raced, and my legs hurt from sitting cross-legged. It was winter, with cold, snow, and freezing rain, and even walking from my room to the meditation hall tested my resolve. Some participants left before the retreat ended. There were moments when I wondered if I could continue.

The Turning Point 

Yet despite the challenges, the experience became profoundly beautiful.

By the third day, my mind began to quiet. By the tenth day, I felt transformed. I discovered a depth of stillness I never knew existed. Even the simple things — the food and the quiet walks through the snowy surroundings — became moments of grace and gratitude.

Returning to Silence 

I always promised myself I would return. Life, of course, had other plans — until now.

This June, I will return to Egbert for another 10-day silent meditation retreat. While I meditate daily, there is something unique about sitting among others in complete silence and yet feeling deeply alone with your own thoughts.

Those ten days gifted me peace, quiet, and gratitude — a stillness I carry with me every day and one I hope to deepen once more.

— Nelda